thoughts on the year and looking ahead to 2015

i really do love this time of year... it is such a great opportunity to reflect on the year and set goals for the new year as well.

if we thought 2013 was a tough year for us, man... 2014 sure put us in our place. i would say, overall, nothing overly terrible happened, but it was just an exhausting year for us. emotionally, everything was catching up with us. we were worn down, exhausted, and tired of it all. vince and i both were fighting some major internal battles and it was really hard to admit that to ourselves and to each other.

one day in the summer though, we had a good long talk. we decided (admitted, rather) that we just couldn't carry the load on our own anymore. we needed help and guidance. vince was having major anxiety and because of that was suffering from depression. i was suffering from depression and because of that i was getting bad anxiety. (flippity floppity!) we decided we needed to see our family practitioner to see what he recommended. we have met with him a few times in the last few months, and things are definitely looking up for us.

i don't really have any new years resolutions this year, no specific ones anyway. but i've been thinking a lot the last few months about what i want for my life. i want to start taking better care of myself. i've just had this strong impression the last little while that now is the time to start taking care of ME. we started a 3 month health challenge with vince's family this month, and vince and i have really been focusing on our eating habits. we are eating much healthier and in smaller portions. we've cut out soda, and have been lowering our carbs and sweets. we've been drinking more water. and we already feel so much better. changing our eating habits is just the first step though. we are both going to try to be much more active, get better sleep and take better care of our emotional and spiritual needs as well.

2015 feels like a good year to really come in to my own, and i'm finally ready for that.